Monday, February 23, 2009

The flashback starts


Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration. Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? That is plain silliness. Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of her own life, for her lover? That is plain stupidity. When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories. Because when I decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel I once read and a movie I once watched. I always ask myself, who will drive my soul after you're gone... Love means never having to say you're sorry but I will have to say sorry to you because love is no longer around. To forget you. Is not to remember you. Every single detail in life reflects you. Every MRT Station I see, every drink I drink, every shirt I wear. But to forget you, what I have to do is not to remember you: Not to remember that we once kissed at this MRT Station, not to remember that we once shared that drink, not to remember that you bought me that shirt. The utmost pain in this world is not breaking up with you: It is remembering the love that we once shared, yet there is no likelihood to revive this love once again. I don’t remember the tears; I only remember the pain.

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