XXX

2009-10-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

O levels' here

WeLuvHouse Part 2, Rev Up with Carl Cox

2009-09-28T10:10:00.005+08:00

Sep 18
WeLuvHouse with djB

djB is back to set our pulses and temperatures rising with his white hot percussion driven grooves. Fresh from putting out house vibes in Bali and Hanoi, djB is back with We Love House once again!

Having just released a remix for US soulful garage group Wipe the needles – “Hands up” (promos out on traxsource), djB looks set to take charge of the dancefloor with his unique blend of funky, techy house, heavy on the percussive and exotic signatures which is always surprising and pushing the boundaries of what we know of the house genre.

FHM girls giving out free condoms

Here we go, Zion

Azri and Dhil were around too, their girlfriends was away from SG.

Hey baby boy Hasri!

Sep 26

Rev Up with Carl Cox (UK)

Musical titan, an acid house original, a rave era icon, champion of techno, and also a 3-deck mixing gymnast, the undeniable king of the original UK underground, Carl Cox, is a man of many titles. With his ability to cut across various music styles, genres or era and unite them all in the name of the 4/4 beat, it seems impossible to pin the work of Carl Cox to just one thing.

DJing since his teenage years and armed with 20 years of causing dancefloor debauchery, Carl’s still as explosive and energetic as ever, playing each gig with all his heart and soul, never losing his unfailing passion to do what he’s meant to do; playing good music, breaking new tunes, spreading love, and simply celebrating life.

Sorry, as it was a very last minute decision and camera was not with me therefore... no pictures were taken! Thought that it wouldn't be good as all along I don't really appreciate all of Carl Cox's releases but it seems that there is some changes after attending his Rev Up at Zouk Club, it was real awesome!!!

My Writes

2009-09-24T14:41:00.003+08:00

Left me undone

2009-09-20T06:05:00.004+08:00

A man on the run

D for...

2009-09-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

I've got a new different secret
D****(is a chinese)

Promo for Dhil

2009-09-05T16:16:00.004+08:00

WE LOVE HOUSE
by Dhil

4 Sept 09 - Dhil in the mix

Common stress

2009-08-31T23:14:00.003+08:00

the failure of a human to respond appropriately to emotional or physical threats to the organism

Stay-home weekends

2009-08-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

Aug 28

Spent time at home with my secret love

Aug 29

Started doing my own revision at home the whole of noon

and had drinking sessions at night

Aug 30

Had a hangover once I've waken up and have to attend tuition classes and in the noon continued with self-revision at home.

What a nice weekend(laze)

I'm frustrated cause life has too many obstacles

Tasty

2009-08-28T21:35:00.002+08:00

I can still remember just the way you taste.

WeLuvHouse

2009-08-23T22:28:00.005+08:00

Aug 21
It's WeLuvHouse with djB at Zouk Club

Received a few invites from them and here we go...

with djB rocking at the Zouk Club

Grab a couples of beers at Zion before that.

This is Utt, got to know him from Cosmic Gate event

at Zouk Club the previous time.

This is Dhil with his girlfriend,

his girlfriend has a twin sister who is a girlfriend of my another friend, Azri...

This is so cool ok

The girl I bumped into at Zirca with Khai

and Khai again!

A few more familiar faces

this is also my new friend I've met at Zouk the previous time, at Cosmic Gate. This is Shah!

There! Azri with his girlfriend

WeLuvHouse, do you?

I can't resist

2009-08-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

I can't resist, my secret

Another eventful week

2009-08-17T17:20:00.003+08:00

Aug 14
In Trance We Trust @ Social House
Having faith in something that'll never die.
Spinning on that night will be the awesome Helipad Resident DJ Special K and all the way from Forbidden City we have the up and rising DJ Kenetixc.
And this is Special K

just a few of us, the rest were busy with their personals.

Aug 15

Cosmic Gate @ Zouk Club

Met Shira babe like finally...

Those slanted shots by Luffy

I wanna end my party life, someone save me!

Four consecutive days

2009-08-11T16:50:00.007+08:00

Aug 6
met up with Khairil, Syed and another friend to Double O, a very last minute plan.

Aug 7
INFADELS(UK)
3 years after their record-smashing album "We Are Not the Infadels", the immensely successful rock-dance crossover group finally hits our shores. Watch out as the Infadel DJs are coming to get you.

And guess what? I saw Khairul!

Some of the people I've met at Zouk were here too,
and some new friends.

Aug 8
ROTATE: Special K & Shawn Livewire
AT HELIPAD

From far left to right: Ait, Yad, Khai, Razmin, Asyraf
From front left to right: Myself, Azam, Birdie Bird, Shahrir

Great ambience with great people

Aug 9

ONE-derland continues as the theme for 2009's series of ONE parties where it's all about the music and clubbers coming together to create a ONE-derland-esque vibe.

Photos will be up soon. See you party people around very soon... And I just forgot bout my O levels, just forget bout it!

SandSaSion Sundaz

2009-08-05T21:20:00.005+08:00

This coming Sunday, anyone?

LET THE BEAT CONTROL YOUR BODY
This Second Edition see DJ Dalley opening at 12pm, followed by DJ Effen (Zirca) & Guest DJ Paul T and closing it off will be DJ Abery. Expect a full day of dance at the beach with fiery performances at sundown..Don't miss out on this exciting beach day out!

1st day of August

2009-08-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

August 1
@ Zouk
Joachim Garraud(France)
After having perfected his piano and percussions for seven years Joachim decided to move towards electronic music. Never miss this truly unique live performer as he returns to blow minds and speakers in equal effect!

With my girlfriends finally... Deeya hun

Haida, Eunice and some guy friends

I was rather tipsy can you tell?!

More party coming, keep coming.........................................

The lovey dovey

2009-07-28T23:50:00.002+08:00

Today I was effing tired bout school so I went to the doctor with the company of the two lovey dovey below, to get Medical Certificate to excuse myself and I was excused for TWO days

Finally met up with the lovey dovey that always stay together.
Lovely couple aren't they?
This is Nawari(what?)

and this is Aidil (has a vespa, TRUST ME)

Lovey Dovey, took this picture using my phone and set it as my wallpaper and sadly now my phone has a VERY ugly wallpaper

Dine/Rebel

2009-07-26T19:49:00.006+08:00

July 25
Start of the day was FLEAFLYFLOFUN. It has some endless gratitude to share, an instinctive repercussion from relentless support:A savoire faire!

Dine at the Fishermen's Wharf

And this is my classmate, Adeline

Didn't took out my camera at all after Adeline had left.
After that I met up with Asnim and the rest for some beers

and went for DJ HAZIME (JAPAN) @ Rebel. That one night only is not bad...at least I get to go to the club, like finally!

Full of hassles

2009-07-23T22:26:00.001+08:00

Nightmare

2009-07-19T22:36:00.001+08:00

Koi Cafe

2009-07-18T23:37:00.004+08:00

KOI Cafe
is a store which sells Bubble tea originated from Taiwan.
Have heard bout how delicious their bubble teas are?
I'm drinking it almost everyday!

Able to choose the sugar level from 0-100%. The pearls that they use are the smaller ones and they are very generous with that as fill up to almost half the small cup.

Koi Cafe are located at Toa Payoh Marina Parade, Chinatown and Ang Mo Kio. Go try it if you have yet to!

Yummy Pastry

2009-07-17T15:09:00.004+08:00

Pat & Felcor Pastry Kitchen
@ No.412 Telok Blangah Road

Uncle bought me Crumple pack

& Chocolicious Pack...

You guys should try! (Y)

Keen to Sell

2009-07-16T01:30:00.007+08:00

Vans Sk8-Hi for sale

Retail Price: $109

Selling Price: $80 nego

Condition: 9.5/10, Worn twice

Clothings & preloves for sale:

http://www.le-prelove.blogspot.com

Digital Camera for sale:

http://sg.88db.com/sg/Views/postDetails.aspx?PostID=955436

Meet the east

2009-07-14T02:03:00.008+08:00

July 10
FLEA-TIQUE! Flea Market Late Night Edition

Insomnia

2009-07-09T15:41:00.003+08:00

Fudgin' Insomnia

and I'm on pills...

Off to town, Happy B'day Mai Bby

2009-07-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

July 6
Met up with Asnim in the late noon

The rest of his friends joined us awhile later

Rashid, Jujud, Wan, Bonn

Had dinner at Tong Seng

Next was Marina Square for fun and laughter

You are not alone, for I am here with you

___________________________

NINTH OF JULY

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY
To sweet lil Mai

Weekend Just Chill

2009-07-07T23:23:00.011+08:00

July 3
The Camera Rental Centre

accompanied Mai to Clarke Quay to rent SLR flash.

Location was rather weird cause it's around the eating house

Aftermath went over to Bugis

and we had Takopachi

short and sweet day right hun?

July 4
Rai's lil b'day surprise

Someone's 21!

Like a man

Lil piece from Secret recipe

Hasri, please get out from the pictures

Did anyone saw someone familiar?

I've introduced him few weeks back?

There, the birthday boy once again

Bobby Joe

Hasri

Asnim

The whole group of people

wishing Rai a Happy Happy Birthday

Flea Titans ll/Amir's Birthday Surprise

2009-07-01T13:20:00.010+08:00

June 28

Revenge Of The Titans - Flea Titans ll

THE LONG WAIT IS OVER!

The greatest flea market in BACK!
(BIGGER, BETTER AND CRAZIER)

We urge fashionistas, vespa lovers, and flea lovers to drop by and check out our stores which will be selling vintage, second-hand branded items, designer clothes and collectibles galore. Whether you're a budding fashionista.bargain hunter or junk hunter, you'll find yourself shopping in an eclectic place alongside great tunes.

Organized by:
Freemansland X Don't Panic(Singapore)

Sponsored by:
Ben Sherman

Supported by:
Vespa

With two of my lovelies once again

and NS man

Cupcakes for sale too!

Presenting pink cupcake Mai...

Green cupcake Bett

Planning for Amir's Birthday aftermath

A simple chocolate fudge cake from Secret Recipe

There! Amir the Birthday Boy!

Say cheese!

I'm loser

2009-06-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

Love is a game that two can play and both win
but I choose not to play

Life's A Beach/Bitch?

2009-06-22T14:11:00.011+08:00

June 20
987FM presents: LIFE’S A BEACH

Start of the day with my two huns:

Brand new beach party, like nothing our lion city has had before!

Some tanning work to do...

writing up to do...

posing to do...

A station to another

SEE THAT!

Seriously, I have to say this:
Miss you dude! Long time no see Maziz!

Everyone look at the angel I'm with!
She is Plain Sunset's real fan I must say! You lovely!

Thanks for taking care of me, xxx

Mai with 4th of June babies

Ok.................. I know

I looked like I'm only four years old...

Hykel and I, he calls me Apple Pie -,-

Now who looks more like a pie?

Life's A Beach must be like heaven to everyone

and we're the Angels of that night! SEE!

Oh pater, Happy Father's Day

2009-06-21T22:39:00.014+08:00

A first-rater

No one's greater
Than my pater.

Had something’s brewing in the local indonesian food scene with the recent sprouting of numerous food outlets, most notably at Far East Square, Pagi Sore is still cooking up a storm after all these years! Upon hearing rave reviews about the restaurant, Family and I went there to have dinner. After all, it has been named by the Straits Times as one of Singapore’s top 50 restaurants!

Pagi Sore food was filling, gosh

___________________________________________

Last of all, would like to introduce my (L),

luvly yang to all of you...

my
angellicfruitcake

Well, it's time!

2009-06-21T12:45:00.001+08:00

It's time we stopped doing some things and started doing other things, better things, more productive things, and more spiritual things.

Gastroenteritis

2009-06-17T12:37:00.004+08:00

Nausea and vomiting
Diarrhea
Loss of appetite
Headaches
Abdominal pain
Abdominal cramps
Fainting and Weakness

Kill two birds with one stone

2009-06-12T14:11:00.010+08:00

June 10
Celebrating Andrew's Birthday

and Moon's Farewell!

First of all, introducing our dj...

from Singapore Chiptune Alliance

Formed in early 09:

Singapore Chiptune Alliance is a place

where all Electronic artist from Singapore gather.

Interested joining them? Visit them on myspace!

Party without any booze?! No way!

Birthday boy and the wonderful photographer of the day!

This was what happened when the minute-hand striked 12

Two piece of cakes? Who else you guys celebrating birthday for?

My belated birthday... Aww!

Last but not least, presenting: Wasted birthday boy

and the Moustache people!

Vibrant Blast

2009-06-11T19:38:00.007+08:00

June 5

My wonderful birthday party,

thanks to people as shown below!

(Stephanie)

(Geena, my younger sister)

Last but not least, my Mom and Uncle! Thank you!

Supafly

2009-06-03T03:06:00.002+08:00

May 30

June 4th

2009-05-27T19:58:00.003+08:00

Birthday Party: http://youdrivemysoul.blogspot.com/2009/05/fionas-birthday-presents-vibrant-blast.html
On Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=84721272594

Since young...

2009-05-23T17:09:00.004+08:00

...my dream

Hip hop dance refers to dance styles, mainly street dance styles, primarily danced to hip hop music, or that have evolved as a part of the hip hop culture

Combination of Dbl O 9th & O BAR 11th Anniversaries

2009-05-23T16:46:00.003+08:00

Two consecutive days

2009-05-18T08:30:00.006+08:00

May 15th
Assorted pop of the past, present and future served up on a funky house groove by DJs Kzee and Jensen @ Power House

with two of my lovelies, Steph and Iris

aftermath we proceeded to Movida for more... drinks!

May 16th

it was never enough...

Mothering Sunday

2009-05-10T16:49:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's day
Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers

“M” is for the million things she gave me,
“O” means only that she’s growing old,
“T” is for the tears she shed to save me,
“H” is for her heart of purest gold,
“E” is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
“R” means right, and right she’ll always be.

Fiona's Birthday Presents Vibrant Blast

2009-05-07T00:55:00.010+08:00

The one and ever vibrant colour party that you can't missed!
@ Costa Sands Resort (Sentosa)

Theme: Vibrant Blast

Music: R&B, Funky House, Trance and Electro House will be playing from 8pm - 12am, with rave lights and surprising glow surroundings. PS: Light sticks will be distributed to people whom obey the colours assigned to them.

Dress code: Once you have become our confirmed guests assigned colour will be written on your wall. Attend the party dressed in that colour, don't try to cheat!

Food and Drinks: Food will be provided (BBQ & Catering) and only soft drinks. Bring your own booze people! (Non-provided) Best is to bring beer *eyes popped

Getting there: Siloso Beach Tram,Nearest Carpark: Costa Sands Resort (Sentosa) & Beach Car Park

People whom are interested can request an invitation on facebook, just search 'Fiona's Birthday Presents Vibrant Blast' under events

Birthday, Supafly

2009-05-04T12:45:00.009+08:00

May 2
Syad (the one in white, in the middle)
presents his belated birthday celebration at Sentosa

here are all the nice people there: Harith, Chinese guy,
Regina, Syad 18th and I forget what is his name.

My dear Stephanie, and Regina booze it up

Aida, Regina, Stephanie

Aftermath, I left these people and went to Saint James.

For Supafly..............................

My weekly dose of R&B and Hip-Hop cuts and it's grind time.

-DJ Kzee

I was a lil wasted, nice (Y)

Night studies

2009-05-04T12:15:00.004+08:00

May 1, Labour Day
Together with Stephanie and Harith, at McDonald's

This is my penguin face

Here goes the photo of two monyets

Scare Mr. O away...

Examination

2009-04-29T14:02:00.004+08:00

In a whiff, School's Mid-Year Examinations have started.
I just had my English and Mother Tongue Paper 1 the day before,
and today was Combined Science practical. It was easy as pie...

I'll have to go back to school later in a while, am taking my English Oral Examinations and I feel something stuck in my throat now, GREAT.

O's Students

2009-04-27T15:33:00.006+08:00

April 24
O for O levels,
O for Orange juice

I'm her orange juice you see.............

Ol' Chang Kee, yum

What's wrong?

photos banyak

Give us more time, Mr. O

Love/Lust

2009-04-25T15:37:00.004+08:00

Girlie Affair with, the guys

2009-04-24T15:59:00.007+08:00

April 22
Saint James Power Station,
with a group of chinese guyfriends
(I know you people must be thinking, you see chinese guys in my post)

Here's Edwin, Nicholas and Joey

Joey, why are you so familiar?

He likes my smile

(Joey: I like it when u stare into space & smile, that face is priceless)

Nicholas, thanks for accompanying me all night

...isn't he adorable?

The person who took this pictures must be really tipsy

I'm not drunk!

What a lovely night

Dine with my love

2009-04-24T14:38:00.007+08:00

April 11
The Flea Titan @ 7 Mt Sophia, with Steph

We were craving for Sushis so ended up here.

Here's the 'best' and 'steph' in my cbox
This is 'best'

and this is 'steph'

April 17
Blu Jazz Cafe @ Bali Lane

utensils must be very clean! We ordered Carbonara,

...Grilled Chicken chop, Calamari Rings

P.S: I'm your orange juice

Common test

2009-04-21T09:10:00.003+08:00

I missed my f***ing test

I love Venice

2009-04-20T15:17:00.009+08:00

Venice, one of the most beautiful cities in the world

Carnevale a Venezia

Quit

2009-04-19T17:17:00.004+08:00

Another saturday at Saint James Power station

The quota is back and I want to quit going Saint James...

Hear that people?

No more club nights for me

Some A and B

2009-04-17T01:12:00.009+08:00

April 4

Some Absolute and Bombay, a distilled or spirituous beverage

with the company of Stephanie, a bartender friend and co.

Chill lax world

Emblazoning birthday

2009-04-14T00:45:00.013+08:00

April 11
On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you!
(The guy with a big smile in the middle)

Meet my new friend, Ess

See you guys in the club,

...on the coming weekend

It's another girlie affair

2009-04-10T21:38:00.003+08:00

April 8
Another night at Power House

Meet Eka lovely...

...and adorable Yat

Happy good friday everyone

Free hugs, anyone?

2009-04-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, a hug is all what we need.

It's a girlie affair

2009-04-02T15:44:00.005+08:00

Pop. Anthems. R&B.

Too Tired Tuesday

2009-03-31T15:07:00.003+08:00

Sleep is as important to health as diet and exercise. When we don’t sleep well, our work, relationships, productivity, health, and safety are all put at risk. Sleep deprivation is a common problem, and many are losing sleep due to long work/school days and doing work at times when they would normally be asleep.

Common causes of sleep loss: Stress and worry are leading causes of insomnia, working at night and sleeping during the day can be challenging. Jet lag, traveling across time zones can throw the body clock out of sync. Sleep disorders, insomnia, and other sleep problems may cause sleep loss and daytime sleepiness.

To improve my sleep, I will have to avoid caffeine close to bedtime and also avoid alcohol as it can lead to disrupted sleep.

Schoolwork is neverending

2009-03-30T19:37:00.005+08:00

Being in school is important. In class, topics are covered and objectives are mastered. Students need to be in class for the learning experience. Every time you are not in class, you have a gap in learning. A gap in learning puts a student at a disadvantage to learn the next topic in class, especially in a sequential class... Sometimes it can’t be helped, Sometimes you are just sick; sometimes family issues come up; sometimes you just break down because of some other issues. It’s difficult to catch up with schoolwork after an absence. It’s real complicated because usually you get a stack about this big of work and little time to do it and you really don’t understand it. You have to work on it on your own. If I could help it, I wouldn’t miss as many days because then I wouldn’t be as far behind.

Catching up is hard...

Can't sleep

2009-03-30T16:52:00.014+08:00

Stephanie and I
Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things

Friday, March 27th
I've been longing to spend my time with you on every weekends. We didn't attend school on this particular day and I find it really hilarious as both of us will be taking O levels' very soon yet we aren't prepared for it.

The moment we reached Somerset station, we went over to the Heeren. Stephanie bought a pair of jeans from QC and we headed to SBucks for some drinks...

love our shoes

While waiting for B & C. (Steph, you know who are they right?)

Told you guys I can't sleep, we left West Coast only at 6 in the morning.

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world.
-Leo Buscaglia

Saturday, March 21

Power house with my usual girlfriends

Eunice and myself

Left to right: Haida, Ida, Eunice and June

After the party at Power house, swapped over to Km8 Farewell Party...

KM8 CLOSING PARTY 2009

To thank its loyal customers for their steadfast support over four decadent years, Km8 will prepare for its ultimate celebration of the year aptly titled "KM8 - The Closing Party" on its last weekend, Saturday 28 March 2009. Starting from 8pm, the closing party will be a tribute to its heydays when it first burst into the scene as Singapore's best concept beach bar.

More party, people...xxx

Feeling restless

2009-03-26T18:21:00.005+08:00

For smokers, a cigarette can feel like a good stress reliever. In fact, during times of stress, a cigarette feels almost necessary, and quitting the habit can seem virtually impossible.

I feel like I’m behind on life. School is completely overwhelming if only for the fact that I feel stuck and hopeless and disgruntled.

When you are happy, you accept yourself; when you are unhappy you reject yourself. But you are both. When all things are flowing, you feel great; when everything has stopped and become stagnant, then you feel in hell. But both have to be accepted. This is how life is: life consists of hell and heaven together. The division of hell and heaven separately is a false division. There is no heaven up there and no hell down there; they are both here. One moment you are in heaven, another moment you are in hell.

Rain is refreshing

2009-03-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

Let the rain kiss you.
Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops.
Let the rain sing you a lullaby.

Some people walk in the rain, others just get wet... Am drenched now

After the break

2009-03-23T16:34:00.003+08:00

For me, getting Mondays started on the right foot was one of the hardest things to do. I would ease myself into the school week like I ease myself into a swimming pool that is uncomfortably too cold, anxiously, rigidly and not looking forward to it.

Once in the class, I'd start off slow. I just went through the motions of greeting the teachers, going through assessment and doing all the calculations, and letting what I found dictate the morning and ultimately the week, Yuck! After a relaxing weekend it's pretty hard to get moving and motivated.

Twilight Penthouse Party, Helipad

2009-03-23T15:14:00.016+08:00

On the March 14th, never to be forgotten night under the moon where sensuous vamps will meet suave vampires of the urban kind. To take place beginning twilight at an exquisite 3-storey penthouse on the top of the exclusive Cairnhill district, this castle in the sky offers majestic views of the Singapore cityscape fit for the vampiric crowd.

The host of the day:

Opening night drew a good crowd...

to an increasing extent:

a crowd of angry people man!

Lets' get the party started...

It's not called a party if there aren't whiskey, gin, vodka, or any other intoxicating liquor.

And balloons!

...DJ

Next up... Helipad presents Special K, Gear up for Kaywire Party with Special K and his fresh style of progressive electro mash-ups:

This is really an exciting account of an eventful life, love you people!

A Blast!

2009-03-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

Promised Mom to stay home for two consecutive days,
(Thursday and Friday)
And Saturday was momentous! (Power House)

Learn to enjoy what you do; rather than do what you enjoy. It is not always possible to do things that one enjoys. But if you learn the art of joyful living, even seemingly boring chores can bring you joy.

Mega tuesday

2009-03-18T13:00:00.004+08:00

Hi, I'm a person addicted to intoxicating drinks...

Beer tastin' good people!

To all: Cheers (and please drag)

Updates

2009-03-16T20:07:00.005+08:00

Shall publish the past few days' posts soon

Chill

2009-03-16T16:26:00.006+08:00

I only went out for a walk and finally concluded to stay out till sundown. Forget not that the earth delights to feel my bare feet and the winds long to play with my hair. To sit in the shade on a fine day and look upon verdure is the most perfect refreshment.

I've met up with beloved Steph.C last sunday, who I don't chill with very often already... I had a pleasant night chatting with her, chilling nearby. I love just chilling out but I love alcoholism more!

Crush

2009-03-13T11:20:00.003+08:00

I have developed a crush on a guy and now he is the only one I can't get out of my head... I've been out of the game for awhile. I don't even remember what a decent kiss feels like, let alone crushing.

Everything happens for a reason

2009-03-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become .You never know who these people may be; your classmate, your close friend, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck.

I want time by myself, no school for me today

Bumped

2009-03-10T18:26:00.005+08:00

Told ya'll I was gonna bump like this...

I look at myself in the mirror and I see my face and my body but I don’t see the light in my eyes. The only thing I see in my eyes is the emptiness that I can never fill. I try to do things that fills the hole that I feel is getting bigger and bigger each day but I just can’t fill it. I remember a time when I didn’t feel this empty, it was the past…

It's a wet and gloomy Monday

2009-03-09T14:47:00.001+08:00

Monday is the most dreaded day of the week.

It was raining. Not the simple sprinkling that had been falling for the past week, but more like a waterfall of raindrops, falling freely from the dark sky. Clouds were built up as if they were great walls, keeping the sunlight from shining down to the broken world. Thunder cracked across the lands. And lightning streaked along the dark, stormy sky. The only noise was of the rain falling to the stone beneath my feet and the thunder rumbling from the heavens above. My hair sagged down past my shoulders and hung across my face when I was walking home back from school. Sometimes, I do like the rain. Capable of washing away so many things; the dirt covering the grass, the litter stuck in the garden - and the infernal tears that always seemed to fall. It was a beautiful thing, and it had captivated me beyond belief. Today is Monday Blues, everyone

Sunday stay home

2009-03-08T18:54:00.000+08:00

Start cracking the books. It's a boring stay-home Sunday today

A pretty long friday

2009-03-07T21:26:00.041+08:00

I'm starting to realise that I can't live without beers, smoking Shee-sha and cigarettes. These activities that can help me distress can never run away now. I had been smoking cigarettes all night long. I've met up with Madeleine and her friends for Shee-sha...

Everyone, I know this is your first time seeing her in my blog, my friend, Madeleine

Us with her friends, Kelvin, Jason and Timothy
The three guys left for Zouk aftermath, so Mad and I went to a friend's birthday party at the East Coast Park Resort.

Elisha's(the one in green) 17th Birthday
This is Yan Kai

And one of the people there, Xiao Qiang(do you have a better name?)

We booze, booze it up

I want winter

2009-03-05T18:05:00.000+08:00

The weather is getting from bad to worse. Why isn't there winter in Sg?

If good weather for you might be bad weather for me; if good weather for me might be bad weather for you, is there truly good or bad weather for everybody? If there’s no truly good or bad weather for everybody, how can there be truly good or bad weather for somebody.

Although I cut class a lot, but my work shows a sign of improvement. Three cheers for my Combined Humanities Subject. Next week will be a disaster, there will be continual assessment for the whole week. I should crack the books by now but Friday is finally nearing which means I can cut the crap about school soon. Hey people! Beep me if you want to have some catching up this weekend. By the way, Steph.C is planning to go Bangkok with me for the march holiday. Now, let us just wait for the good news.

Say hi to my cantek, everyone

Companion

2009-03-04T18:31:00.003+08:00

When it was six o'clock in the morning. The alarm clock rangs and it was time for school. So I wipe the sleep out of my eyes. The first period for today was reading. But I got to bed a little late last night, and so it's kind of hard to focus on what I was reading, and half an hour after I've finished, I can hardly remember what I read. To my surprise, the blazing sun is so terrible today!

I've found someone that I'll particularly valued. We had been making phone calls this few nights and...to that particular person: You should know who you are. You are one friend I regarded with particular affection and admiration. I want to get attention from you, and want you to know my presence.
Come, seat here with me

Last Wednesday

2009-03-04T18:00:00.003+08:00

Stephanie rang me up. It was a very last minute decision to make my way to Town to meet up with both Jesleen and her. Supposingly they planned to catch a movie but I have to attend school the next day and it was pretty late when we reached Somerset. Grabbed some chairs and settled down at Gloria Jean's to have a drink then. And here, say hi to Jesleen and Stephanie(long time no see)

Caffeine for Stephanie, Chocolate for myself, Iced Tea for Jesleen:

Jesleen, What a pose

They took out a set of cards. So addictive that Jesleen dreamt of playing cards in her dreams.

Lastly, a picture of Stephanie and myself

Let's end this denial

2009-03-03T14:31:00.002+08:00

The first droplets started to fall. The rain started to come down a little faster then faster. There had been a light, cold drizzle when I was in class two hours ago and now that I'm home. The rain is extremely heavy and rather unpleasant to be out in. And I have to say this, I'm yearning for a cup of hot chocolate, a beverage made by dissolving such a preparation in milk or water, served hot. On the other hand, the rain became a soothing friend carrying away the troubles and sorrow. I forgot about everything, the pain became apart of the storm.

Ain't coming back anymore

2009-03-02T15:12:00.003+08:00

Message sent (to date): Just go, don't have to think bout the memories. There is nothing sweet about to remember. Just get a better one, I bet you have got one already. Good luck, till here and take care B

We don't need time anymore, I'll move on. Our 7th month of love today, is also the end of us

Let's talk about love... Boy meets girl and looks into her eyes. Time stands still and two hearts catch fire. Off they go rollercoaster ride, up & down and around... Twisted all out their minds and then his friends said "it's too soon to settle down". And then her friends said "he's a playa, slow it down" They couldn't be who they were because it just seemed like love wasn't on their side. This would not be love, but it would be something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever be grateful.

You are the boy who grew up to play sports every week with fellow boys
You are the boy who would eat like a boy if you lived alone, living on potato chips and Pepsi
But you are a boy who is also a guy
You are the guy that had to bear all the craps
You are the guy that she impressed by eating through half a bucket of fried chicken and then do push ups straight away
You are the guy that had to be taught what relationships were and in turn taught her how to work hard in a relationship
You are the guy that believes, trusts and prays even when she has given up hope
You are the guy of her dreams and her greatest fear is to live without you.
Who are you? You are that guy and I am that girl.

Sad, I feel

2009-03-01T17:03:00.003+08:00

Message sent: I know you don't sayang(love) me anymore right

I loved you from the start, I recall the days I loved you in a million ways.
Now that you and me are from lovers to History. Does anybody know this feeling of despair? When you really love someone, when you really care, it's hard to walk away... When I really want to stay with you. Does anybody know it tears you up inside when you tried to decide between what's wrong and right? I'm sure that my love aint coming back no more.

I am as sad as...the smoldered grass, the autumn leaves,
the frost on a glass
I am as sad as...the summer dew, the winter days, the crying bird
I am as sad as...a torn paper, the ragged clothes, the decayed food
I am as sad as...the winter mist, the crying bird, the monsoon hail
I am as sad as...the white snow, the grey colour, the crying stars
I am as sad as...the bloodstained eyes, the hot fresh tears,
the icy cold water
I am as sad as...the last tear, a aggressived soul a shameful blot
I am as sad as...i am as sad as...

Once his girlfriend

2009-02-28T17:03:00.001+08:00

Message sent: You change alot baby. I know I'm a troublemaker, always hurting you using those words. But how I wish I could make you happy all the time. No matter what I'm still here for you and I'll be by your side facing all these problems. I really don't have any other girls and am sorry for what I've done. You are precious gift that I've always wanted, love and miss you. YOU ARE MY GIRLFRIEND!

I wish to tell you that you don't have to make me happy by any other ways, I'll feel happy when you're around. Now I'm facing all the problems myself and I feel the loads in my mind, even in the heart.

To forget is just an interpretation. An immeasurable love’s memories can never be wiped off. Time doesn’t devour memories: It just slowly, painfully converts it into fragments of a dream. Occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream, and the dream will alter into a memory again.

Bad dreams

2009-02-27T13:32:00.002+08:00

On this particular day, he had a bad dream and he sent: B, don't leave me... I had a bad dream, you left me and don't want to be with me anymore. Dreams can be true you know, I keep thinking negatively. My heart won't feel easy when you're not beside me.

Yet you are the one who left me and don't want to be with me anymore, even. I hope that dreams won't be that true. It's just the antonyms, instead of me being the one leaving you, you left me, all alone. Now my heart feels uneasy every single day.

Tears are such uncontrollable creatures. I tried taking in deep breaths, I tried not to blink, but they just came, spurred by the thought that you have left me. Have you ever cried so much, so sad that your heart starts to emit physical pain as well, like your heart is shedding tears? I had, because that was the first time I experienced that pain:Sharp, strong and like an emotionally-injected sting. I wondered if he had heard my plea, my love, his love, our love, my pain. Which single molecule is not a memory of him? When we were into our relationship then: There was no sign of any loss in love, and our relationship was as steady as a rock. We chatted with each other every night, and updated each other of our status almost every hour. But now, every trace of our relationship was gone; just like that. Don’t forget him. Just don’t remember him. Take away anything that reminds me of him: His pictures in my handphone, his photo in my room. I never forget true love: I just don’t remember. But everything reminds me of him.

Type of guy

2009-02-26T13:51:00.001+08:00

The day before the 2nd month, bicker over small matters like what couples usually would. He sent: Sorry that's my fault..I've over react towards you.
Though it's too little too late, at least I'm realising it now. Isn't he sweet enough to give in all the time when we have arguments? And mostly I was the one whom is at fault.

For now, sinking into a memory of one of the touches you stroked on me, I cannot remember the physical touch, but I can remember the delicacy of it. Have I forgotten you? When I tried to forget you, I had just thought of you again. Are you, are you thinking of me now, as my mind revolves with your image, again and again? ~~~~~~~~ It was not a decision based on emotions when I decided to break the news to you. I had thought of it for months: The happiness that we shared, it is never going to last, and if that is so, why still pursue a love that is going to writhe away soon? Why create more happiness, when I know that this ring of glee is going to be part of a memory that you will dearly miss, and I will heartbreakingly forget? When I step out of the main door, I love you deeply, but am going to tell you that we are going to separate soon. The pain is not the separation: The pain is the love that we share; the love that was once so blissful is never going to be refreshed again. The pain is that we are still so much in love, yet we have to let go now. Only someone who had experienced this before will understand. Isn’t it ironic? It is my profound love for you that brought us together. Now, it is the same profound love that will separate us.

Away from SG for family trip

2009-02-25T13:41:00.001+08:00

Before he went for a holiday with his family, here goes another message that he sent: Don't worry, I will always miss you baby. I'm really gonna miss you, don't leave me. Please be with me. I'm going off ya, gonna miss you and family; kiss

Is that how it feels? Everything seems so empty. For the last three months, every single movement seems empty. Even in a crowd of people, I feel lonely, I feel like you are the only person in the world who can wipe out the loneliness in me. Every single second, I think of you, I think of ways to make you smile, I imagine where are you now, and every single second, you are like a part of me, and I see you more than I see myself because the moment I close my eyes, your image stands in front of me. You had forgotten. You had forgotten me, Fiona Leong, the woman you promised to marry? The woman whom you loves – loved – so deeply? I took in deep breaths. You had once promised, never to leave me alone. Promises: Are they created to be broken?

On September 2nd, 2008

2009-02-24T13:58:00.001+08:00

Sayang sent: B, Happy one month. Good Luck for your paper today...haha. I'll wait till you finished off with your examinations. May we last, miss and love you; kisses.

We have known each other for two hundred and eighteen days now. For the last few months, I have been exceptionally quiet. It used to be me calling you in the night more than you calling me. We are separated by a pair of closed gates between us. What you need to do is to push a button on your remote key and the gates will swing open: But if it swings open and breaks off the barrier between the both of us, the gates will hit me as it swing outwards towards me. Isn’t that an appalling reflection of our relationship? Breaking the barrier will allow us to be together, but one of us will be hurt. One of us has to give way, and I have volunteered to be the one.

The flashback starts

2009-02-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration. Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? That is plain silliness. Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of her own life, for her lover? That is plain stupidity. When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories. Because when I decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel I once read and a movie I once watched. I always ask myself, who will drive my soul after you're gone... Love means never having to say you're sorry but I will have to say sorry to you because love is no longer around. To forget you. Is not to remember you. Every single detail in life reflects you. Every MRT Station I see, every drink I drink, every shirt I wear. But to forget you, what I have to do is not to remember you: Not to remember that we once kissed at this MRT Station, not to remember that we once shared that drink, not to remember that you bought me that shirt. The utmost pain in this world is not breaking up with you: It is remembering the love that we once shared, yet there is no likelihood to revive this love once again. I don’t remember the tears; I only remember the pain.